I let it fall, my heart And as it fell, you rose to claim it It was dark and I was over Until you kissed my lips and you saved me My hands, they were strong, but my knees were far too weak To stand in your arms without falling to your feet
But there’s a side to you that I never knew, never knew All the things you’d say, they were never true, never true And the games you’d play, you would always win, always win
But I set fire to the rain Watched it pour as I touched your face Well, it burned while I cried 'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
When laying with you I could stay there Close my eyes, feel you here forever You and me together, nothing is better
'Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew All the things you’d say, they were never true, never true And the games you’s play, you would always win, always win
But I set fire to the rain Watched it pour as I touched your face Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name I set fire to the rain And I threw us into the flames When we fell, something died 'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time
Sometimes I wake up by the door That heart you caught must be waiting for you Even now when we’re already over I can’t help myself from looking for you
I set fire to the rain Watched it pour as I touch your face Well, it burned while I cried 'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name I set fire to the rain And I threw us into the flames When we fell, something died 'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, oh Oh, no Let it burn, oh Let it burn Let it burn
I swear, this woman is the best thing that ive ever listened to.
“Someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn’t happiness, and I think that maybe happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less…”
omg this woman is a JEEN YUS!!!!! I hadn’t had time to just sit and listen to hear 21 album, but DANG it’s good. I wasn’t in the best of moods last night, and Rolling In the Deep came on the radio and i was like…hmm that’s right, gotta listen to all those songs.
GOODNESSS it was like…whaaaaaat is this?!?!?!? I WANT MORE!
It’s kind of an angry album, now that I think about it, but I suppose that’s the mood that I’m in right now so I found the lyrics and the music itself super amazing. Everything from the past couple weeks kind of came crashing around my head and when I got home I was just in a terrible, upset, cry-my-eyes-out kind of mood. I didn’t, but giving myself one night of self-pity party to watch sappy things and listen to this kind of music made me feel a lot better.
Watched the notebook last night, listened to adele’s album over and over again, wrote tumblr posts, had a nice round of chipotle therapy and watched glee <3. I’m feeling so much better today, I can smile and laugh and be excited about retail therapy with nicholas :)
so THANK YOU ADELE, BABY YOURE THE BEST :D Fav adele songs: Rolling In The Deep, He won’t go, Set Fire to the rain, I’ll Be Waiting, Take it all, Rumor Has it (the way she sings it is awesommmme).
<3 Adele. If you haven’t listened to 21, go give it a shot please :)
On a side note, I AM DONE WITH SCHOOL AND HOME!!!! HIT ME UP LETS HANG OUT PEOPLE :)
I hate it when a girl says “All boys suck!” or “All boys play girls!” No, they actually don’t. Plenty of girls have nice boys that treat them right and with respect. Open your eyes and look at who you’re falling for, look at who you’re talking to. All of the douchebags make the great guys look bad, there are good guys out there. Calm down, ladies. Just sayin’.
TRUE STORY. I hate when girls say that too, or if girls are like “boys are so complicated”. In truth ladies, we’re just as complicated, if not more. I have to admit, I’ve had my share of stupid guys, but I was just as stupid. Take a look at your relationship, whether you are just friends, newly dating, or even so far deep you can’t get out anymore. Don’t keep blaming it on the guy, look at your own actions too; guys will only react to what they see, the same way us girls do. So before you start getting mad about guys being jerks or guys doing stupid shit, take a look at your own actions. If you have more issues than a magazine, call it quits and look harder for those nice guys.
Of course no guy will be perfect, its impossible. Everyone has flaws, even you. So give it time, find the guy that will care for you more than anything in the world. He’s out there, you just have to be willing to be patient and look for him! If anything, it’ll happen when you least expect it, so calm your tits and wait.
Face to face and heart to heart We’re so close yet so far apart I close my eyes I look away That’s just because I’m not okay But I hold on I stay strong Wondering if we still belong
Will we ever say the words we’re feeling Reach down underneath it Tear down all the walls Will we ever have a happy ending Or will we forever only be pretending Will we always be pretending
How long do I fantasize Make believe that it’s still alive Imagine that I am good enough If we can choose the ones we love But I hold on I stay strong Wondering if we still belong
Will we ever say the words we’re feeling Reach down underneath it Tear down all the walls Will we ever have a happy ending Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh) always (oh oh) be keeping secrets safe Every move we make Seems like nowhere’s safe to go And it’s such a shame Cuz if you feel the same How am I supposed to know
Will we ever say the words we’re feeling Deep down underneath it Tear down all the walls bloglyrics.net Will we ever have a happy ending Or will we forever only be pretending Will we (oh oh) always (oh oh) be pretending
I love glee :) They have a song for everything, i swear
This is gonna be long...you see your name, just read that part
So I’m sitting in my dorm, trying to fathom how I might say good-bye to this campus, possibly for good. Memories of the year, however ugly or amazing they may be, are running through my mind, and while I don’t want another one of those “what have i learned” posts, I have to admit that I’ve gone through significant changes and learned a lot this semester and I suppose it should be talked about.
Wendell-this man is gone from my life for now. I have no intention of ever returning to be with him again. He restricted me and controlled me from so many things, kept me under lock and key basically. When I objected, or questioned, he tore me apart and blamed me for all our problems. I don’t think I’ve ever been with someone so abusive, and I always swore I’d never let myself fall like that. I was so lonely first semester, however, that I clung to him in a way I should never have. I don’t regret the things that I did because I know that at the time, it was exactly what I wanted. I do feel bad about a ruined relationship however. Hopefully in time, things will be better. I know better now for next time something like this happens.
Sam-this girl…I love her like she was my own sister. I can’t imagine how much worse first semester would have been without this girl. She and Keith have been my closest friends through all this, kept me sane and kept me alive. I’m going to miss the crap out of her this summer. Honestly, I think God put her in my life for me to meet Marian and join IV, but I gained a best friend at the same time. Either way, I’m not going to complain; shes more than I could have asked for in a best friend. God answered my prayer unexpectedly, next time I need to look harder for his answers.
FSG-this group has really turned things around for me. I can’t say I know everyone in the group well, nor do I really know them at all. All I know was that they took me in even though I joined second semester and made me feel welcome. I’m difficult to deal with sometimes, I know, and I couldn’t be more grateful to this group. My peers have given me so much to live for, so much to be excited about. I’m so glad that I decided to give IV another chance and go to FSG because I’m so in love with the kids in my year. Don’t be discouraged, look for a place that will accept you for who you are.
IV-Like I said that night, when I first came to IV I wanted nothing to do with it. I came, no one talked to me, no one cared that I was even there. I said hi to Marian, and eventually met Maddie, but otherwise people didn’t care. I know I rag on Alan about this all the time, but his initial meeting with me that night really hurt me to the point that I never wanted to come back. But I did; I gave it a second try and I got myself plugged in. You know what? This group has turned my life around too :) I’m so glad I get to serve next year. Don’t wait for opportunities to just fall into your lap, go out there and grab life right off the tree.
Alex-I know I already made a post about this girl, but she really deserves a million. I’m not sure I would have lasted the past couple weeks without her. She’s been a rock for me, on which I could physically lean when I couldn’t stand. I love the way she is, the way she cares, the way she loves. She intimidated me a bit at first the night I met her at the tac with Maddie, but I don’t think I could live without her now. Thank you for being my friend. Listening is one of the kindest things you can do for people, even if you can’t help them.
Mike-I don’t know if you’ll read this, so I’m going to write it as if you aren’t. You’re rarely on tumblr anyway, so whatever. I’m really…really glad I got to spend so much time with you the past two weeks. You’ve given me more than I could have ever asked for, even if you don’t know it. Yes, I was upset after I left; I cried. It was pretty ugly. I have loved being yours though, however short a time it lasted. You taught me how beautiful a relationship can be, no matter how short it is. Aw fuck, I’m gonna start crying again -.- Anyway, I hope you enjoy Korea, visiting the motherland is always fun especially since you’ll have friends to hang with and not just your siblings. I’ll admit, I’m jealous, I’m really jealous and my life is a mess now because of you. But like you said, I went into this knowing things would turn out this way. Why did I do it? I can only say that I genuinely wanted to be with you. Like I said, if you’re still interested after this summer, Let me know. I promise I won’t be so clingy next year. It was really the time constraints, cuz I knew I wouldn’t really see you this summer. Don’t hold back, if you’re going to do something then do it wholeheartedly (in this case, it was loving you).
Alan/Davey-I love you two like you are the brothers I never had. Despite all the weird shit that has occurred this year, I have to say that I might have not made it through the year if not for you guys. You two are the closest to me out of that group right now. Davey, thank you for being there for me when I needed it most this year, and for offering to come give me a hug. Alan,…there’s no word for how grateful I am for picking me up. I can not thank you enough for what you two have done for me. No matter how retarded they are (or in this case, how gay they act), your friends are your friends. Cherish them.
Mel/Guy/Tom-You guys were my first friends here. It’s so sad that I got caught up in IV-life and kind of neglected you guys. I promise, if you all are around next semester, I’ll come see you more often! Please please, keep in touch :)
Danie/Alex/Gab/Jasmin-I can’t believe just how blessed I am to have had such good people to live with. One of the three fears I had was having bad suitemates, but coming here was really God’s choice because he provided me with all the things I needed. You four have been just awesome, I can’t believe it. Even though things started out weird between me and Gab, I can’t thank her enough for always listening to me. And Danie…girl, you are something else. I think the three 214 girls are the only ones that really understood the extent of Wendell’s abuse, and I’m so grateful that you guys have been there for me <3. Do the things God tells you and don’t worry, He’ll provide everything else.
At the beginning of this year, I sat in my room trying to understand, to comprehend why God sent me to this school. I hated it here at first, wanted to come home almost immediately. I know now, however, that God has sent me here to put these people in my life, and to show me these things. I’m excited to see what God has in store for me <3
<3 if you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it.
Even though things are all complicated in my life, even though things are super weird with my friends, even though I’m going to lose people in my life to graduation and summer temporarily, I feel like this semester has taught me how to love myself and love the people in my life.
Gentlemen -Adam, Alan, Davey, Ivan, Jon, Justin, Mike- thank you for making my semester something else. I prayed hard before school and during last semster that He would bring me friends I could trust and rely on and I feel like you guys have really been the answer to that. Thank you for being my friend, even through all the drama this past week or two. You have been the best friends a girl could ask for :)
Mama-bear…there’s nothing I can say that will be enough to properly thank you. I saw you yesterday and I feel like it’s been a lifetime. It’s sad to know that I won’t be able to just go across the quad and see you, or just hang in mike’s suite and know you’ll come in sometime. Thank you for taking my darkest secrets and keeping them in your heart too. You’re amazing, there’s no word for you and I love you so much <3 I’ll be over for crepes every sunday (mike will be there too if I can get him up hahaha).
Mama-leah…I know you don’t read this, and I know I already said the things I wanted to say, but I felt like you deserved something here. I love you girl, you’ve been the best role model I could have asked for. You and alex both are just something else, I can’t explain what I’m feeling. good luck to you girl :) oh and keep them pipes greased cuz girl you got the voice of an ANGELLLLL <3
Maddie…JUST FREAKIN GET A TUMBLR ALREADY. I’ll see you this summer <3
So my roommate and i decided to bunk at the beginning of the year, and this semester i was on top. So today, we were all chillin in the room goin crazy and i was creeping on her below. The positioning of my body was like this; my legs were tucked under me as i leaned over the edge of the bed to look at her underneath. Then all of a sudden I feel a drop in my stomach and I realize I’ve fallen off the bed. The next thing I know, I’m lying on the ground, my entire right side hurts like crap and i’m giggling like there’s no tomorrow (yeah i have no railing).
Yeah, that’s right, I fell off the top bunk face first. I should have done a horrible faceplant, but somehow I managed to do some weird flip in the air and land on my side instead. Jasmin puts it as “some ninja shit through the air”, hence the post title. They told me that what happened was that I went headfirst but somehow managed to do a flip/curl thing and land on my side/back instead of my face. I think it’s cuz I spent so many years falling all over the place, so now I know how to take care of my body when I fall hahaha.
I’m going to be SUPER sore tmrw. there’s a bruise on my left lower back that needs to go away -.- and my foot hurts something weird. I suppose that’s what I get for being creepy hahaha
On the other hand, I have a chem exam tmrw that i have not studied for, one bit….yeah im so bad -.-
At my school, there is a superstition that every year, either an Alumni or current student will pass away. It’s called the “Magruder Curse.”
Every year, since my older sister, and even my older brother has been there, this superstition seemed to get more and more believable, and as years went on,…
Why did it have to be my high school? I didn’t know haeley or john personally, but i did know spencer. Used to like him and everything. I can’t say we were best friends, but i talked to him a lot in middle school, sixth grade. I can’t believe how quickly life is given and taken away. Count your blessings and thank the people you love everyday, because this is how short life really is.
Rest in peace Spence. We’ve all had at least a couple more laughs from knowing you.